每一個人都不想成為「別人」，但自己卻發現自己常常好像有許多個靈魂、許多個處境。澳門藝術家陳慧雯，以一系列的自畫像告訴了別人，也告訴自己，人的情感是如此的直接、坦白且純粹。

No one wants to become like the others, yet we often find ourselves having too many “souls” or stuck in so many familiar situations. Wai Man Chan, Macau Artist, reveals herself to others with a series of self-portraits that show that human emotion is so direct, genius and pure.

自小喜歡畫畫的她，出生於一個不太富裕的家庭，因此也與大家所想的一樣，認為做畫家真的是一件很虛幻很虛無的想法。當時覺得，不如到台灣學室內設計吧，覺得都跟畫畫有關，應該可以一嘗做喜歡的事情的心願。後來慢慢發現，設計與畫畫大有不同，甚至可以說是相反的。她認為設計都是商業的東西，都是為客人去創作，需要站在對方的立場去做對方所想的事情。而畫畫卻不同，是反映著自己的心情與態度。那時候在想，倒不如回澳門學習一個穩穩當當的學科吧。由於喜歡到處旅遊，就順理成章開始在旅遊學院學習酒店管理了。很幸運的是，能夠有機會到希臘當實習生，期間更到歐洲旅遊了一段時間。陳慧雯會覺得，既然在澳門沒有辦法讓自己學習到更多的藝術知識，那就去其他地方看多點、學多點、吸收多點吧。就這樣，她遇到了很多很多的人，發現了自己更多的可能性，更認識到了能夠賞識自己的人。

Wai Man loves painting since she was young. However, becoming an artist sounded impossible to her because she wasn't born in a wealthy family. She went to Taiwan to learn interior design, thinking it was similar to painting, so that she could do something that she always loves. Later on, she discovered that designing and painting were completely different. She understood that design was more about commercial products, which was needed to create products for customers and also about putting herself into the customer’s shoes to design. Painting, on the contrary, is simply reflecting the painter’s emotion and attitude. Then she came back to Macau and studied a real major. Because she loves traveling, she began her journey in hotel management in the Tourism Department. Luckily, she got an internship opportunity in Greece and travelled around Europe for a while. Wan Man believed it wouldn't be harmful to her to learn more and absorb some artistic knowledge in Europe, something she couldn't find it in Macau. Gradually, she met lots of people, and just like that she found more possibilities for herself.

《我是我自己的風景》是陳慧雯的第二個個人畫展，她認為，這是她如今的心情與狀態。在紐約居住學習藝術的 7 個月裡面，讓她更能夠觀察自己、認識自己、了解自己。她認為，每個人都有這樣子的階段，經歷的事情不同了，想法也會不同。曾經覺得這樣是一個病態，但是後來發現，這是每個人都有的情況，既然如此，也不要收藏起來，就讓自己的情況畫下來，記錄下來吧。

"I Am My Own View" is Wan Man Chan's second gallery exhibition, which fully interpreted her emotion and status. When she was living and studying in New York, in July, she observed herself, recognized herself and understood herself more. As she mentioned, everybody experiences different stages in life, going though different situations, changing people's values. Somehow she thought that it wasn’t a healthy status, but in the end she recognized that everyone had the same, although living different situations. Therefore she would rather paint it as a record than try to hide her true self.

《我是我自己的風景》個人畫展

陳慧雯染了一頭金絲髪，給別人的印象是如此的活潑開朗，細談之下，才發現喜歡與自己對話的她，帶有一點點的抑鬱氣質，在畫中，才能將自己表露無遺，或者說，只有在畫中，才覺得「我是我自己的風景」。

Due to her blond hair, Wai Man Chan gives a lovely energetic impression to others. After talking with her you notice a bit of a gloomy feeling, which can be discovered in her paintings. In another words, only in her painting "I Am My Own View".

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